It’s funny how I never thought age would shift my sense of self, that is until I realized that I would be celebrating the last birthday in my twenties. It wasn’t the impending upcoming birthday – the big 3-0 – that bothered me (like it does for some), but the end of a decade. Being afraid of my thirties would only mean that I had regrets on the things I missed out in my twenties, which to be honest, are quite minimal. I have a soft spot for my 20s; they’ve been good to me and have given me insight on the adult person I’ll eventually become in my 30′s.
As some might guess, I’m the kind of person that gets sentimental over things like that – saying goodbye to a previous decade to say hello to a new one. It gets me thinking about way too much. Oh, and people asking when Jason and I will have kids can do that to too.
I took Friday off from work just because an extra day to a long weekend sounded like such a nice thing. I gave myself a break and drank more coffee than I usually do, and ate things I usually don’t. I danced with great company on Saturday and watched movies all day on Sunday. It was a great weekend.
I’m currently writing a list of things I’d like to get through this year – something I should be doing more fervently with short and long-term goals.
Turning 30 is just a nice reminder.
My friend Elizabeth brought me a whole dozen Glory Hole donuts. They’re pretty fantastic.
They were good (even if a bit dry) the next morning with coffee.
I’ve also been coming along really well in my ceramics class. I’m thinking about signing up for a third class starting in April. 
How have you all dealt with getting older? Did any of you have anxiety?
Hope you all had a great weekend! xx
ummmm lets just say my bday is almost a month away and yes ive alread had mini panic attacks that this will be my last year celebrating my 20s. i had sooo many mixed feelings about and after about literally five minutes of just blank staring, brent poked me and was like, “hey, you gotta leave for work!” haha, so yes you are not alone in the feeling anxious department. But to be honest, i’m kind of a hater of birthdays in general, no matter what age i’m turning i’m forever thinking back on the year and asking myself – did i accomplish anything great? did i really do what was important to me, did i make a difference…but more so for this year it’s more of an ”ok, i’m officially only going to be in my 20s for one more year, i really need to get my life together and figure out what i’m doing!”
and after reading your post i’ve decided that really its not about expectations or ambitions that others have for you (or for you and jason as a couple – ie kiddies) its about what YOU want or need in your life. i think focusing on short term goals are better than the weight of long term goals…considering many things change in the span of a year let alone a month even sometimes. sure its great to have those goals for maybe five, ten years down the road, but really its the short term goals and successes that get you to those places no? maybe thats just my way of thinking but its my new way of looking at life and not freaking out about figuring out where i’ll be by 35 or something. if you spend too much time and energy trying to figure out you’re future, you’ll miss the great things going on in the present.
anyhoo i’m clearly in rant-mode so i shall stop, but wish you only the best for the last year in your twenties..and as my sister would probably say, its the last year you can really get away with just about anything…so do lots of stupid fun stuff! hahaha
<3 ya lady!
I totally agree – short term goals are the way to go. It’s the little things that can chip away at those big fat goals – those goals that always seem to scary and unattainable but really, just need time and patience. I tend to lose my patience sometimes so those little short term projects are perfect and keep me interested and productive. I also feel like my vision in life is changing a bit, so I have to reevaluate what I want to accomplish this year, next year, in ten years… etc.
Life right?
i’m turning 29 this year too, and i’m very nervous
i’m still in denial :p
i assume that will go away in a few days!
happy bday! :)
I’ve been getting that a lot – denial or surprise. 30 is so ominous that it kinda just asks for attention, but 29 is sneaky!
Cute bowls!!!
29 was much harder on the self than 30. Perhaps because we went away for my 30th…we went to Paris for a long weekend. 29 snuck up on me, and caught me unaware!!!
Hey Shannon! Thanks! I’ve been told not to plan anything for my 30th, so perhaps I too will get a nice little trip! And yeah, I think half the anxiety was that it did just sneak up on me.
So interesting that you talk about growing and show succulents. Succulents have been iconic in my imagining seasons and growth in my life. I feel like I am too hard on myself and expect so much from myself. Every year (or few years) I look back and see clearly how I exceeded any natural/healthy expectations for myself but couldn’t see it at the time because I had some unfair standard I held myself to. I hope as I grow older that I can close the gap between my unfair expectations with realistic standards of growth. Thanks so much for your post here. It helps me keep a healthy perspective. I don’t have to be an adult with everything figured out at the age of twenty-five….
Kate from Clear the Way
Hi Kate! Succulents! So true – they go through cycles like we do, sometimes dormant and sometimes at speeds you wouldn’t expect. I constantly have to remind myself where I was a few months ago to acknowledge the growth or successes. We always focus on the failures or the slow progress of things and it’s a challenge I work on everyday! I’m glad you enjoyed the post – I’ll probably have a few more as I take on more projects in both life and work ;)
Oh my God I’m so old!! And don’t even dare to ask my age! The 30′s are the best, so so good, that I think there should be two decades squeezed into the 30′s, part 1 and Part 2 ;)
I’m also thinking my 30′s will be amazing!! I’ve been told the same thing by everyone as well, so I’m looking forward to them :)
(It’s just sentimental me getting sad about my last year in my 20s haha)
I love you blog!! Amazing photos… they always look wonderful and yummy!! <3
Thanks so much Jessica!